Forever Vacant

 There's a place inside my heart,

A dusty room, left cold and dark.

It’s where I store my memories,

The picture frames and all the trophies.

I put them there when T moved in.

It was -her- pictures she wanted pinned.

So, I complied, didn't know better.

I didn't know she's a home wrecker.

The years have passed since Trauma left.

She calls sometimes, or sends a text.

I try to not give her attention

But this can cause a little tension.

I threw most of her stuff away

But now the house's a little grey.

I wish to fill it up with color

But I've got nothing as decor.

It's all locked up in that old basement,

Where all I like and value went.

The door stays closed, I lost the key

So my palace remains empty.

Public emergency

 Dazzling lights shine in my eyes,

Vision starts to spin clockwise.

Heartbeat quickens, time to fight,

Fight the monster causing fright.

Turn my head, eyes lag behind,

Want to run, I feel confined.

Hundred voices all at once,

Through my brain with pain they bounce.

Thousand stares stare in my soul,

Face warms up like burning coal.

Tears are coming, this is it.

Got to hide, I can’t permit.

Can’t allow for it to be,

Can’t allow for them to see.

See me falling in despair,

See me gasping for my air.

Start to shake, can’t even speak,

Fight is lost, here comes panic.

Pulls me down onto the floor,

Heavy limbs serve for decor.

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Try to reason with myself,

For mercy I tried to pled.

Pledged my case in front of them,

But without mercy they condemn.

Ruthless jury of my mind,

Suffering I’ve been assigned.

Evil demons from my soul

With their claws my eyes they bore.

I have tried to run away.

Sobbing and afraid I pray.

But no matter what I do

They keep screaming:

“DEATH IS DUE!”